an incomplete circle..

its amazing how life is so incomplete..and humans are the farthest thing from perfection.

i have always used this human trait as my excuse for all my 'wrong-doings' . now what really makes me wonder is how unfair life is..you just will never get what you want..NEVER..i did not mean this in the literal sense..what i meant is you'll just simply never feel satisfied..i am not quite sure if its our fault that we are greedy by nature and are never satisfied with what we have..or is it really that life never gives us what we want..a lot of times i feel i pay a price for every happy moment i spend..it kind of made me want to avoid happy moments! i really believe it's true..for every moment of fun there's at least double the amount spent grieving..its just something i noticed in everyone's lives..however pessimistic it sounds it really makes sense..even if you are one of those pretend people who go about living their care-free lives..we all have something missing whether it be money..material posessions..or love..it's just that people's priorities differ..and strangely what comes as highest priority is always what we don't have! i don't think that's a coincidence. it's really weird how all humans have this urge for perfection although we are never actually getting there! but most people spend their lives trying to find their missing part(s) and in some cases even working their asses off to get just close to it. am not sure if that's what we should spend our lives doing..but then again if itsn't that..then what is it?! am not gonna answer that question..maybe because if i had known the answer i wouldn't be up tonight blogging! am just gonna sit back and watch my life unfold..maybe at the end i'll find out what i was supposed to do..well don't we always find out at the end..

*clears voice* my 1st post:
its a pretty dull night..i think i caught a cold *cough* and i just had my chocolate quota for the day and it sure as hell lifted my spirits!! am such a 'chocolate' person..am extremely addicted I can have chocolate with just around anything..after meals..before meals..snacks..even meals!! Its 4 am and i am really bored..it's really annoying when you try to sleep but you really can't and you just stay up in bed staring at the ceiling then suddenly all those weird thoughts come to mind..and for some strange reason..everything that I hate thinking about comes to mind when I can't sleep..which in turn makes it even harder to get to sleep..then I start trying to figure out anything better to do than just lay there in bed but i fail..sometimes I end up listening to the local radio stations..which is let alone quite an experience! They air the dumbest shows on the planet down here on egyptian radio..and they have just about the lamest presenters ever..ohh i just remembered that silly show they air every fortnight..its just hilarious really!! I gotta admit the presenter has quite a strong masculine voice that would make you wanna listen for a while..till you realise what the guy's saying!! The show's about love, relationships and problems etc..etc..Thing is with our wacky egyptian culture this is like some kind of taboo..firstly the show starts at midnight up until 2 am..and for some reason all the callers are girls!! a lot of them don't like to mention their names and talk in some hushed voice like their parents are sitting trying to eavsdrop in the next room! and goodie-goodie between each caller they put on what i'd call 'cheesy-love-song-of-the-day' nightmare is it keeps going on and on..and on..*yawn* that is just an example of how lame the local radio is..you can of course tune into the one and only 'sort-of' decent music channel..but i'd rather listen to people talking..it helps me get to sleep faster lol..come think of it..i should be getting up in 8 hours..I should probably go get tucked in..*yaaawwwwnnnn* oh well..tada for now